My first day of sobriety was Sept. 5th which makes today my one month birthday. Huzzah, happy birthday to me!!! This last month has been a crazy rollercoaster ride, both emotionally and physically. The first couple of weeks were awful. I was craving alcohol every single night (and some days). The fact that I had chosen to stop drinking brought alcohol to the top of my mind. It’s seriously all I could think about.
Cody and I went to a wedding during my first dry weekend. I didn’t know anyone there, and they had an open bar. I don’t think I’ve ever passed up an open bar! I mean, it’s a perfect recipe for dealing with my social awkwardness (yes, it’s true – I do get socially awkward sometimes – I’m talking straight up Asperger’s, seriously…) So, I stayed away from the booze and instead, stuffed my face with these delicious blue cheese cracker things. OMG, they were yummy, and they kept my mind off the alcohol – kind of.
We had some guests over to our house last weekend, and I was pushing everyone to drink. Why should they suffer through sobriety like me, right? Besides, it felt great to see everyone else enjoying what I was missing out on. So I pulled out the shot glasses and started pouring our guests some delicious silver tequila. I didn’t want to be left out so I had Cody pull a CharDee MacDennis. You might be wondering what a CharDee MacDennis is… Well, it’s that one thing where I create a distraction and Cody fills up my shot glass with water. (those of you who watch It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia will know how we came up with this super secret code.) I can then raise my glass with everyone else and participate without actually putting alcohol in my mouth. It’s genius, right? This way I’m not the weird sober one in the corner of the room, while still being the weird sober one.
I had no idea that my little blog post about going sober would bring me so much support. My family keeps checking up on me to see how I’m doing. I have friends calling/texting and letting me know that they support and love me. I had a dear friend from Portland mail me a book, “Healing the Shame” – thank you Andy! I’ve heard from a couple of friends that my post has encouraged them to stop drinking – I hope they are still on the wagon. One person even submitted an anonymous blog post letting me know that I helped them get the help they were looking for. I’ve had people from work stumble upon my blog and when I see them, they pat me on the back and tell me good luck. Lastly, Cody… He’s been by my side this entire time. He has been keeping an eye on me and helping me out more than he knows. It means so much to me to see him be so proud of me. I’m a lucky guy to have him – he’s definitely a keeper.
Thank you, everyone! Seriously, you have been awesome and you’ve helped me so much!!!
I’m going to celebrate today. Going one month without alcohol is a pretty awesome achievement for me. I’m going to run to the store and buy a cake and a “1” candle. I’m going to order a delicious cheese pizza, and I’m going to treat myself to a delicious 6 pack of ginger beer (they’re non-alcoholic btw.)
I’m going to stick with sobriety. This isn’t going to be a short-term kind of thing. Instead, I am going to enjoy the rest of my life as a sober person. I’ll still be the life of the party. I’ll still get my drinking buddies to drink. The only difference will be that I am going to remember. My memory won’t escape me and I won’t be that drunk asshole that keeps breaking shit and throwing up on people (sorry Harley – let me know if I need to buy you new shoes.) Woohoo!!! One month down, a lifetime of months to go.