I generally love the “On This Day” feature that Facebook has. It’s almost always filled with the fun adventures that I’ve been on. It’ll often remind me of the hilarious, albeit inappropriate and off-the-wall, status updates that I’ve posted. It also allows me to reminisce and revisit all of the various friendships I’ve had (Damn I take a lot of pictures – also, damn I miss my SLC peeps).
Other times, however, Facebook reminds me of a different life – a life that I used to have – a life that is completely estranged from where I am now. Facebook will sometimes haunt me with x-boyfriends, or that one
friend miserable human being that stabbed me in the back, or other difficult moments in my life (hello Long Beach).
For example, today Facebook reminded me that I was proposed to three years ago… Whoa! First of all, I can’t believe that I was almost married to a man. I mean, the “man” part isn’t really surprising – everyone knows which way I lean… What’s hard to fathom is that I was close enough to someone to actually be married. I mean, if those thoughts/feelings of love were real, why didn’t we follow through? This man is a complete stranger to me now, and I can’t wrap my head around it. I’ve been thrown for a loop today – questioning love, questioning relationships, questioning a lot of things.
Somehow the “On This Day” feature has given me perspective today. I’m coming to realize that my past is a part of me that I cherish – the amazing times and the not-so-amazing times. I love who I was. I loved the friends that I’ve made. I’ve loved becoming me…
But now, I need to focus on my present – maybe even on my *gasp* future. I want to surround myself by friends/family/lovers that will be around for the long term. I don’t have time for petty pretentious relationships. I want to do what makes me happy, and I want to do those things with the people that I love.
I’ll still cherish the past though. Everyone knows I live a pretty fabulous life. Maybe I’ll just focus on the good parts and forget about the bad. For instance, do you know what else happened on March 11th? Well four years ago I used my flight benefits to fly First Class to San Francisco (an amazing story, btw) to visit my favorite cousin in the world (sorry other cousins – but you all know it’s true.) We went rappelling 165 feet into a cave, we saw Rock of Ages, we played on the Seward Street Slides, and we went to a Bear party with Molly and Amanda where we danced and sang to Britney. It was a pretty epic day in 2012… Let’s focus on the good things in the past and continue to make some awesome memories in the future 🙂